12.30.2010

resolution, shmesolution



Is it me or is it the kiss of death to a new year's resolution to post in a blog your goals for the new year? I realized this year that a new year's resolution is just something no one really talks about in conversation the older you get. I can understand, because as one gets older, it can tend to be quite a personal topic for some. I know that I always have it in the back of my head that as I am sharing a goal for the new year with someone, I cant help but think that the person with whom I am speaking is going to remember every bit of what I said and hold onto and then will be laughing at me behind my back when I fall on my face. I know this is an absolutely absurd way to think- as if that person really cares that much right?? How narcissistic of me.

I don't ever look at a new year's resolution as something that will be actually followed through to the end of the year- sad I know. As much as I would love to be the pioneer woman of blogging, mothering, wife-ing (is that a word?), knitting, exercising, dieting and housekeeping ( I could keep going with this list), I simply know that if I attempt to master all or any of these things at once, I will fall on my face and just be too discouraged to pick myself back up to even try again- at least until the next year. The fact is, I have so many things I want to do better. I want to be improving myself throughout my life and becoming better.

Nonetheless, I do think the beginning of each new year is a great time to refocus and reevaluate one's life and just make some attempts to get back on track or try a new "something".

This year I am going to try to do it a little differently. I am not going to be simply making new goals for the whole year, but rather plan to make a couple of small, achievable goals each new month. At the beginning of each month, I will then sit down and evaluate, modify and refocus my resolutions. I will be posting a couple of things on my pantry chalkboard door each month, so I am seeing it every day. That way I am forcing myself to be faced with my goals on a daily basis. I know myself and one thing is for sure: out of sight, out of mind. I may fail miserably, but maybe that will be my first goal for January- to follow through for ONE measly month. I will keep you posted...

So here is to 2011- to a better and more balanced body (exercise and diet), mind (me time/ balance in general) and spirit (God)...and following through.