Lately I have been making some inner life-changes. I have had some major eye-opening moments. The combination of being in ministry with 2 children, ages 2 and under, has overflown my life. When I say, "overflown" I mean- in the most wonderful way, my life is- well, is there such a thing as a life that is "too full"?
I have always heard that when a family is in ministry together, your family MUST come first and ministry second or it will destroy both your ministry and your family in the end.
For as long as I can remember, I have made it a point to try to say yes to everyone and do most everything that is presented to me. After all, that is ministry right? ... I would have slapped anyone's paw who really claimed to think this way! What I didn't realize until very recently is that this has been my take on life as a pastor's family without ever realizing it. To be at everything. To volunteer for everything. To say yes to every invitation. To be available to people 24-7. I have been a whirlwind at home with trying to stay on top of my house, raise my children, serve my husband and find balance with friendships and my ministry.
Recently I had a good cry over a cup of tea to my husband... this is where it all came to a head. After pouring my heart out to him and sharing my frustrations with feeling so out of control of my life- he in his simple wisdom, replied- "Sarah, just live ONE day how you want live your life everyday." I have not been able to stop thinking about that. What do I want my life to look like each day? What are my priorities? What is important to me?
I vision my life to be one of balance- thriving with a combination of routine and spontaneity. Putting my family first, but also taking time for myself. Pouring into the Word and taking time to meditate on Him. Taking time to exercise and eat a wholesome diet- and not look at it as a chore. NOT spreading myself so thin that the quality of my friendships to others is diluted.
It took some major battling of my mind, but now that I have submitted to the Lord in this prompting of the Spirit, I am at a more serene and peaceful place. I am learning the very difficult task of saying, "no".
pardon me if lately you havent gotten your usual facebook comments and "like"'s from me. these days im takin a lil ol facebook break.